oi moi.

Apr. 2nd, 2008 02:43 am
hedgiewan: (muertos)
Ok. This isn't funny. I've had a really terrible day. In the "top five worst days" of my life category. Like all terrible days, it starts with both no breakfast and no coffee, and having to be at work earlier than usual. Then it gets really gory, which is not a story that belongs here. Suffice it to say that I think a terrible day at my job has a lot more potential for being really deeply distressing than anyone except maybe [livejournal.com profile] viksin's.

And then. The fucking icing on the whole rotten cake. My dad, wonderful man that he is, e-mailed me to let me know that Billy Bragg is playing at the Cedar. I've been trying to see Billy Bragg live since I was 15, with a number of pathetic failures. And it's great that Dad e-mailed me, because BB hasn't updated his tour dates, but I'm pretty sure the show will sell out.

The icing? I'll be in San Francisco. For work. For long enough before and after that I won't have any chance to see him elsewhere in the midwest (if he even plays elsewhere in the midwest- he's not exactly big on long American tours). But not for long enough that there's a chance in hell that he'll be playing in N.California before I leave.

I know this is just about the stupidest thing to complain about; I'll be in SF presenting the last year's worth of data at two different scientific meetings. It's a great opportunity, it will be really interesting. But punk rock and science aren't two interests that mesh really well, and it still hurts to have to choose one half of who you are over another.

All right. I know it's 3 in the morning, but I need to make some tea and calm down. I am so sad.

the hedge abides.
hedgiewan: (pink)
I am sick to death of people who demand my time. Not the people who ask if I want to hang out, but the people who, after getting turned down twice, start assuming that I'm making excuses. You'd better believe that if I really don't want to hang out, I will let you know. But you also need to respect that, if I'm busy, I'm busy. And I am often busy. Not because I'm avoiding you, but because I regularly hang out with extended family (who out-rank almost anyone), occasionally go in to work on the weekends or work 14-hour days, and, every once in a while, want to not leave my house. THIS DOES NOT MAKE ME A BAD PERSON. This means that, ultimately, my life is not to be turned upside-down for any one person. If it frustrates you that we never connect, please either say so, and be willing to accept that you might not be top priority, or consider scheduling something with me more than a couple days in advance or on a less-busy day (i.e. "we both want to go to the museum. when is a good day?" instead of "what are you doing tomorrow? we should go to the museum."). It's not like you don't have other friends that you don't always get to see, and it's not like you not being "family" means that I don't care about you, and it's not like you're the only person that I go months without seeing.

Think about it-- if our paths don't cross that much anymore, what does that mean? Honestly, think about it. Is it entirely my fault that we don't see each other in social situations and have to organize something? Oh, wait, you're right, I'm ignoring you, of course it's my fault.

Fuck you.

the hedge is abiding by a thin, thin thread.

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